I dedicate this article to myself for having a courage to express something in writing. To be honest, I am not good enough at speaking in public, either through writing or speaking directly. But at least, I want to try.
Hello everyone.
My goal here is to be more courageous in expressing myself. As a bonus, I hope this article could inspire anyone who has a problem like me.
“ Just say it. What’s so hard about it?”
Maybe for some people, speaking in public is easy to do. But not for me. There is a struggle there. Even on social media, it’s just the same. I’ve fought this condition as well as myself since about seven to eight years ago. As I memorized and typed, I subconsciously said, “Wow, it’s such a long time.”
I used to be a girl who was brave enough to show myself in front of people. However, when I was in high school, I felt like I was getting smaller every day. Of course, there was nothing wrong with the people or the school environment at that time. It was really a great experience for me. I have learned a lot and got positive energy from excellent people there.
Maybe as I’m a perfectionist, I’ve also felt too insecure. That’s why I’m always scared to try new things and end up stuck in my comfort zone.
Insecure is lacking confidence and doubting their own abilities. — Cambridge Dictionary
Perfectionists tend to be very self-critical and unhappy and suffer from low self-esteem. They can also be lonely or isolated as their critical nature and rigidity can push others away as well. This can lead to lower self-esteem. — Elizabeth Scott
I am too fearful of what others think about me.
However, I don’t hate myself for being insecure and a perfectionist. Because without those feelings and traits, I wouldn’t be triggered to try to be a better person.
“So, why do you suddenly want to write?”
Actually, I’ve wanted to write something for a long time. But it’s never been accomplished because it was just an intention without a plan, which eventually passed.
As an alumnus of public health students, daring to speak is one of the essential keys in applying the knowledge because our target is a broad community. So I want to start it with writing.
Apart from filling my spare time, I think writing is also a self-improvement that I currently need. That’s why I have an intention to release an article through this platform. Then I found this post on social media:
After reading it, I feel aware that whatever I plan will never come true if I don’t dare make it happen. So, therefore, I am here trying to be braver.
I have to believe in myself to make some good improvements in my life.
P.s. For anyone struggling with insecurity or perfectionism, having the courage to accomplish your plan one by one, start from even the small thing, will be a good start to achieve something more significant in the future.
Just believe in yourself.
