It’s been a while since I forced my brain to make some words here. It’s not easy as I thought. I’ve been sitting and looking at this title for almost 15 minutes, but they wouldn’t come out. I feel like Deja Vu. It brings me back to when I started to write here for the first time. The feeling, confusion, and struggle are all the same. But this time, I want to make my pieces to be more sincere written. I want to start this out again. I don’t want to expect appreciation anymore. All I want is could improve my writing skill and hopefully, I could influence many people someday.
Last Friday, I continued to read a book that I’ve paused for about seven months. It only takes a few minutes to realize how much I regret not continuing it back then. It’s a very motivating book and it changes my mindset about life completely. If only I could read it a little bit more at that time, should my present life had been better? Well, maybe yes, maybe no. It’s all about possibility. It depends on my efforts and of course, my fate and destiny. And that possibility will always be with me, with us, every single time. It’s just a human thing. So, instead of regretting my action in the past, I should fix and do it now and give my best to get a better life. Not for later, not for tomorrow, but RIGHT NOW.
At the beginning of this topic, I said that I couldn’t make some words written. But, see? I’ve been in my third paragraph now. I know it’s not so many words, but at least I didn’t just stop there. I’m trying my best to continue and finish this work. Because I should do it. I should do it to see how this story ends. I should do it because I have the responsibility. Sure, I had a break in the progress. I ran to YouTube only to watch some funny and insightful videos. I got a rest and sleep. I read a book and other things to refresh my mind. I just didn’t give up on this topic. The writing must go on so that I can see the end of this story.
Living life is just the same as writing a story. You would find some obstacles and problems in the progress. Some of them are easy to solve and some of them are not. Maybe you would have a hard time overcoming them. Maybe you should pause or stop at some point. Then you could continue or try another thing at the right time. Everything has the option(s). And you yourself are the only one who chooses that choice for your life, for your future. Only you who have the responsibility for your own life. Only you who can be relied on by yourself.
Only. You.
Happiness, sadness, anger, and other emotional things are just another part of you. You can’t deny or ignore it, but you can control it. Don’t let yourself be overwhelmed by those emotions. Because before you know it, they would lock you up in the same space for a long time. You won’t grow for that moment.
“However, everything passes in this life. A happy day goes by, and the day when you’re most upset goes by. The sun always rises after dark. Isn’t it?” — My beloved friend, Aykız, 2022
So, take your time enough to cope with everything. At the end of the day, you should remember that your life is not over yet and it must go on. You deserve a better life. You should fill your life with so many kinds of things. Go shopping, go working, go painting, and do anything you like. Do anything you want. Let’s not regret anything anymore. Enjoy the moment and make memories.
